What are you looking forward to the most after your surgery? Is it feeling more in control of your life? Is it a certain weight or dress size that you want to obtain? Is it feeling that you are not the fattest person in the room anymore?
I am looking for a sense of peace....and now only 11 days from surgery am wondering if I will find it from a piece of plastic around my stomach, or if I need to look somewhere deeper. I want to be peaceful in my heart, peaceful in my actions. I want to be peaceful when I leave my house, not in constant fear that people are looking and judging me. I want to be peaceful with my children, and not have to worry that their classmates will point out to them that they have a fat mother. I want to be peaceful with my husband, and enjoy (hopefully) a very long life with each other. I want to be peaceful in knowing that everything in my life has brought me to this place for a reason.....
Ok...now that the sappy stuff is done...what I really want is a McDonald's McDouble.