Holy Cow! I cannot believe that I started this journey over a year ago and I am weeks away from the final product! I know that most people are banded within months of starting the process, but I had a....well....I was side tracked. For about 6 months. A very long and challenging six months. I flew through the medical clearance, slept with a million wires attached to my head to prove that I can breathe just fine, and even (Praise the Lord) had my insurance company approve the process. I went to seminars to learn how to eat after the process, and ordered my special vitamins and protein powders. So, what could I be waiting for?
Really? I mean, really? I don't have psychological clearance? I have a Master's in Counseling for crying out loud and I couldn't pass this? Ugg!!!
Well, maybe he (the Doctor) knew what he was talking about.
I have a long love affair with food. It's my go-to comfort source. A best friend who does not judge and rarely disappoints. It's warm and gooey and filling and ever-present. And after I am banded, it will not be available for me. I needed to learn new skills. I needed to learn how to cope with my thoughts and emotions in other ways besides Lou's Deep Dish with Pepperoni, Sausage, and Onions or a McDonald's McDouble. So, after 6 months of highs and lows, therapists and psychiatrists, I am ready for clearance. Hollllaaa!!! Dr. Anderson said we would have our final pow-wow on Monday and then she would write me my letter. And my last gall-bladder ultrasound is on Tuesday, after which I get to schedule my surgery date! I am so excited! I am so ready!
I will not end my growth journey here, though. I have an AWESOME therapist through Insight that I will continue to see on a weekly basis to work through my issues, to talk to about creating new game plans to handle stress and anxiety, and who will work with me as I develop the new Megan.
Hang on tight....it's gonna be a bumpy ride!